How do you stop being scared of writing? Asking for a friend. The friend is me. Asking for me. I AM SCARED. So I don’t write. But I think I want to. I miss it.

delirious-comfort:

Hospital was supposed to call me today, they have an hour and ten minutes left before their work day is over.

I have a feeling…

🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

Hospital was supposed to call me today, they have an hour and ten minutes left before their work day is over.

I have a feeling…

Ah. My surgery that’s no longer happening is scheduled a day before my birthday. That’s nice. Told ya.

rebelwarrior217:

stress-writing:

jjba-oc-shenanigans:

anxietyproblem:

By @psych2go

I never thought I was mentally exhausted

Oh….

This is…. oh

I’m nailing adulting, really. I have 1 euro and 8 cents to go in my bank account before I reach max overdraft. I love my life. It’s going so, so splendid. Yay.

Originally posted by crapolainabox

It’s literally too hot to move.

hyperanonymous:

Sometimes I want to push everything away and stay invisible until the bad stuff is over.

athelind:

mood

At 1300 my surgery was approved after 9 months. By 1430 surgery was off the table, I was told my tumor isn’t cancerous and they’d rather not take a risk with surgery when my body is still weak and fat.

But apparently bariatric surgery is fine. Which is still something I don’t want. But they started rolling the ball anyway. 🙄 Also I could tell them I don’t want it obviously, but healthwise there really isn’t much of a choice.

So anyway. Whole different surgery on the table now until my body is capable enough to remove the tumor. Will hear more about that on Monday.

Tomorrow it’ll have been a year since the since lung embolisms. I have some feelings about it. Don’t think they’re all positive.

I don’t do well when stuff changes fast like this today. 😕 So I’m not super okay, but now you know, if this shite interests you.

Bye.

I STG IF I AM GETTING SURGERY AND WILL BE IN THE HOSPITAL ON MY BIRTHDAY AGAIN I AM GOING TO LOSE MY SHIT

my surgery was just greenlitted. not that they can tell me anything about when the surgery is happening. just that it is happening. THANKS GUYS.

Genuine question but like, when yall have nature shite happening our news will generally report about it but if you’re not from the Netherlands, Germany or Belgium… do you have any idea what’s happening here or nah?

One more hospital appointment and then I’m done for the next three months. Unless surgery magically happens in that time and I really hope it doesn’t. I need a break.

Texted this to my mom and said, “When a homosexual has a nosebleed.”

She responded with, “You’re bad!”

And I told her, “I actually think I’m hilarious.”